So just like that, we said once more and God said 'Amen'...wish granted....lol and here we are sitting shocked and delighted at wat come from him...and till i come to terms with wats actually happening in my life....the cute little bump starts showing and people around ask me....r u expecting? actually I wanted to tell them all...i was not actually expecting this!!! But all I do is give a shy nod!
Yes so here I am all set to the new chapter in my life....being a mother once more....When i break out this news to my mother, she almost faints in shock! Nevertheless, she congratulates me for my bravery et all...
This time its so different than the first time....i m no more taking watchful steps...all I am doing is running behind my son.....answering his never ending questions, trying hard to ingrain him to the fact that he will soon have to share his parents with his little baby brother or sister.....sometimes his questions are exhausting.....like how will the baby come out, why isnt a baby coming to my friends house etc....how do i answer these satisfactorily, though momentarily I know i can send his curiosity to the backdoors....
Surprisingly, i think I am more curious than he is....i am still trying to come to terms with the fact thats going to be a reality soon..,...the family triangle suddenly is all set to become a square.....4 of us....going through the diaper-doctor-feeding story once again.....One night i watch my sons baby pictures and videos.....i see him in tht helpless infant stage and my heart almost sinks....i m going to go through this nursing stage all over again!!!!!!!! But then i proceed to his toddler pics and watch his butter ballish face that brings joy and contentment and i grow less anxious....to come to think of it...soon the helpless infant will grow into a cute little baby and then soon a chattering toddler....the doctors visits and diapers will eventually disappear in thin air.....something i find reassurance in....
My mind jumps to the school admission phase, the hiked school fees, the growing air ticket prices, the high dining costs, clothes shopping.,......everything multipied by an additional number....sends me to a frenzy......my head starts spinning thinking of this inflation in the family and the country.......just then I get a fluttering kick.....tht brings me back to my senses....its like the little one is saying "Mommy, stop worrying, I am not even born yet....dont scare me with the negatives of this big World....I am too tiny yet....but I promise you....I will be a good child and just like God sent me to you, He will take care of your wordly problems too!!!"
I retire for the day......in peace and smile to myself....its high time I became mature to handle my anxiety...and God has given me an opportunity to do this....once more....
Yes so here I am all set to the new chapter in my life....being a mother once more....When i break out this news to my mother, she almost faints in shock! Nevertheless, she congratulates me for my bravery et all...
This time its so different than the first time....i m no more taking watchful steps...all I am doing is running behind my son.....answering his never ending questions, trying hard to ingrain him to the fact that he will soon have to share his parents with his little baby brother or sister.....sometimes his questions are exhausting.....like how will the baby come out, why isnt a baby coming to my friends house etc....how do i answer these satisfactorily, though momentarily I know i can send his curiosity to the backdoors....
Surprisingly, i think I am more curious than he is....i am still trying to come to terms with the fact thats going to be a reality soon..,...the family triangle suddenly is all set to become a square.....4 of us....going through the diaper-doctor-feeding story once again.....One night i watch my sons baby pictures and videos.....i see him in tht helpless infant stage and my heart almost sinks....i m going to go through this nursing stage all over again!!!!!!!! But then i proceed to his toddler pics and watch his butter ballish face that brings joy and contentment and i grow less anxious....to come to think of it...soon the helpless infant will grow into a cute little baby and then soon a chattering toddler....the doctors visits and diapers will eventually disappear in thin air.....something i find reassurance in....
My mind jumps to the school admission phase, the hiked school fees, the growing air ticket prices, the high dining costs, clothes shopping.,......everything multipied by an additional number....sends me to a frenzy......my head starts spinning thinking of this inflation in the family and the country.......just then I get a fluttering kick.....tht brings me back to my senses....its like the little one is saying "Mommy, stop worrying, I am not even born yet....dont scare me with the negatives of this big World....I am too tiny yet....but I promise you....I will be a good child and just like God sent me to you, He will take care of your wordly problems too!!!"
I retire for the day......in peace and smile to myself....its high time I became mature to handle my anxiety...and God has given me an opportunity to do this....once more....
